Friday, May 11, 2012

Mother's Day

With my first mother's day approaching I have been thinking allot about how I felt last year on mother's day.  Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.  At that time our adoption homestudy was going nowhere and it seemed like we would never be parents.  Having to celebrate mother's day was complete torture and an all day reminder that I had no idea if I would ever be a mom.

It is amazing the difference a year can make.  Although Nic and I have other stresses in our life at the moment I can honestly say that I am looking forward to this mother's day.  I know that the main point of the day is to celebrate mom's and everything they do for us.  For me I will be celebrating my baby girl and everything she had done for ME!  She has made me look at life from a different perspective and I can say that for the first time, in a long time, I feel completely whole.

Don't get me wrong, Nic and I have an amazing marriage and our life is full of so many wonderful things.  I just think we have both been waiting for this little miracle to truly start our life together.  We both seem to see everything we do now (especially big decisions we make) in a different way.  I think we have always been trying to plan for our children but until you actually have them I don't think you truly know what that means. 

I would like to take this opportunity to thank so many people out there who's role fall under the "mom" umbrella.  Nic and I are both lucky to have great mother's but we also have so many people who we value as "mom's".  Women who we have watched (in admiration) raise their children from babies into smart, aware young people.  Women who have provided a shoulder to cry on or a safe environment away from our lives when we needed it.  Women who over internet wires make us feel less alone and more loved than you could imagine.  First Mom's who think of their children's future and open their hearts, homes and lives to adoptive parent's even though at times it is scary and sad.  Women who selfishly put themselves last and everyone else first.

Happy Mother's Day!

xo xo xo 

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